Hi. I’ve been wanting to say a couple of things to you for a long time, but whenever I had the chance to say them out loud, I somehow couldn’t form the words. So I decided to do what I do best, write them instead.
This is not a letter about how much I love you, or how much you mean to me. Because you know all of that already. And, I know that you love me too. And I also know how much. I’m the first-and sometimes, only- person you tell stuff to. I’m the person you call bursting with news because you couldn’t wait another minute to tell me. I’m the person that saves you from yourself, the one that is always there for you. I’m the one that keeps all of your broken pieces glued together.
And you’re all those things for me, too. You’re there for me. You’re there for all the important things. And, I wish that were enough. But, it’s not. I want need you to be there for the unimportant things, too. The little things that do not matter, I need you for those, too.
I hate the fact that you take me for granted. Hate the fact that you think I won’t go anywhere. And, I hate myself more because it’s true. I hate that your problems always overshadow mine. For once in your life, I want you to stop talking about your life, and really pay attention to what’s happening in mine. Even if it’s not interesting, even if you’re bored out of your mind, I want you to just.. Listen. And, I hate that I keep hoping for this to happen, even though I more than likely know that it won’t. I want you to be the kind of friend that I am to you.
I know you’re probably never going to read this. I guess it’s one of the main reasons I had the courage to write this. And, truth be told, I don’t want you to read this. Because I’m scared of what might happen if you do. About what comes after that. Because, no matter what, I don’t think I want there to be an end.
–Still all the love in the world, R
Very touching… and whoever it is, is very lucky.. Good luck to you, I hope he reads it, he will love it 🙂
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It’s not to a guy. A girl, actually. One of my best friends. 🙂
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Ah, I see 🙂 Still.. does not matter.. whoever reads it will know what you mean.. and should find it touching too.. Lucky, like I said.. 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂
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This is so beautiful 🙂 How effortlessly you’ve put a simple thought in words 🙂 In love 🙂
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Thank you so much, Hasmeet. 🙂
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C’est la vie, indeed. There’s nothing wrong in wanting this, and I appreciate you for having the courage to say this out loud. Because needs like this are something we keep to ourselves most of the times.
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Thank you. But, I know that person won’t read it, that’s probably why I posted this in the first place. Don’t know how courageous that is.
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Well letting others know that you feel this way about someone counts for something too. 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂
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Let her read 🙂 She will be glad to know that you care so much and return back some portion of the same feeling 🙂 Shit happens in life but without compromise and understanding no one gets matured and I know you’re awesome 😉 Keep feeling and writing ❤
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Thanks, Darshith. She won’t read though. And, you’re awesome, too. 😀
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We all are awesome 😀 Bhej do usse link and she will read 😛
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Chod na yaar. I’ll explain later.
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Ok madam 😀
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Mon ami,
Why don’t you pick the phone and tell the same to her. Just my two cents.
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I’ve tried. 😦
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The risk of loss is the risk of love. And then again, “Faint heart never won fair lady.” Ah the conundrum of love. The thought of what might have been, weighed against probability and outcome.
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But, this is a letter to my friend, though.
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Ah…understood.
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Beautiful honest words. Interesting how we I presumed it about a man when our feelings towards girlfriends are as, if not more, important.
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Yes, I totally agree with you. They are the ones that are always supposed to be there for us, aren’t they? And thank you, Violet. 🙂
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heart touching ;'(
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*sad smile*
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😥
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I was hoping he would read this and get closer to you by understanding you better! Nicely written, anyway 🙂
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Thank you. 🙂 And, it’s a letter to my friend though, not a guy. 🙂
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Ok…
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I can very much relate. I always find myself in friendships that feel uneven. Sometimes something drastic happens in their life that changes things. But most often you have to sadly walk away.
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Yeah, after a point of time it all gets to be too much.
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So many times, in my 63 years of living, I have felt the heavy weight of this beast. I do hope you might find a way to communicate your sorrow. A true friend listens, learns and understands. ☕️❤️
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Thank you. 🙂 I hope so, too.
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I’m sorry. We’ve all had friends like this. It can be so frustrating. I think you should share your heart with her. Hopefully, she would be receptive to what you have to say. In any event. I hope things get better.
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Thanks, Tosha. And, yes, sometimes it gets really frustrating.
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Straight to the heart, through the thousand-and-one layers of armor. I’ll try and remember to listen attentively when I have someone to listen to again
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🙂
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She is missing out big time. And you already know what I think, so that’s it.
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Yeah, babe. But what can I do? *exasperated sigh*
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You have a way with words. You express thoughts,feelings very beautifully. I can relate at many places in your many posts.
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Thank you so much, Srividya. 😀
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friendship can make you feel love like even love cannot….i know that feeling too
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Yes yes, it can. *sigh*
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