Month: October 2015

Emotions, emotions.

To all my friends, who would drop everything and come running if I was sad. You know who you are.

Hello, my dear dear friends.

This letter is not going to be sappy and emotional. Okay, it totally is going to be. I’ll try to tone down the sappiness though, we all know I’m not good at that. *chuckles*

I’ve been feeling emotional for some reason, and I was going around telling everyone how much I love them, which, lets face it, I never do. So, I thought, why not make it into a post for the whole world to know? Let them know how lucky I am?

I have no idea how to even begin putting into words how you guys make me feel. You have been there for me when I needed it the most, through all the important and the not-so-important things. You listen to me babble about random stuff, and sit there with that smile playing on your lips. That’s not even the best part. The best part is that you actually care about all those random things I have to say. And, about my crazy theories. *chuckles*

And, when I’m feeling paranoid about something and start overreacting as usual *insert eye roll*, you let me call you up and listen patiently while I list out the reasons why I think I’m justified in being paranoid, and you never once try to offer advice or interrupt me, because you know all I want is for you to listen. I can think out loud in front of you.

You never once tell me I’m being silly, or that I’m overreacting. Wait a minute, you do. Haha! What’s more, you never judge me, and you always understand. I can’t even begin to thank you guys for that. Talking to you guys always, ALWAYS makes me feel better. I can be super weird with you, and not have you running away. Most importantly, I can be completely MYSELF with you.

You guys are all the therapy I need. All those times when you guys make me laugh so hard my stomach hurts. And all those pep-talks you give me whenever I need it. You are the ONLY ones who can tell me bluntly that I need to cut the crap, and get away with it. Sometimes, the truth hurts, and you never fail to tell me that, even when others would comfort me with lies. And, I love you for it.

God, I love you guys. So freaking much. Even though I don’t say it much, I hope you know that I do. Also, I can’t imagine life without you. It would be dark and gloomy. To be quite honest, it wouldn’t be much of a life. You colour my world, in the most beautiful way possible. You guys are my family.

If this post has been dedicated to you, know that you are loved. Unconditionally. And, you better comment on this post. Each one of you. *stares you down* (No sappy stuff, please. I would prefer it if you stick to those affectionately rude comments.) Or I will kick your ass. I mean it. *stern expression* I can see you rolling your eyes and saying, “no you won’t”. *sigh*


-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore

P.S. This post is for my real life friends. I will dedicate one for you all lovely readers later. 🙂

What is love?

To Pranay Oscar Lakra, again. Why? Because I can. Also, because sometimes love is simply a best friend being there for you.

Love is finding someone who loves all your broken pieces.

Love is finding someone who doesn’t want to tame your demons, but wants to dance with them.

Love is understanding them, and not judging them at times when everyone else would.

Love is loving them even when you hate them.

Love is giving up your last slice of chocolate cake, even though you love cake.

Love is finding someone who knows the complete version of the real you, the version you keep hidden from everybody else, and they love you for it.

Love is finding someone you never have to be anybody but yourself with.

Love is arguing with them with all you’ve got without the fear of losing them hanging over your head.

Love is when their mood can easily affect yours.

Love is taking care of them when they are too old to take care of themselves.

Love is sitting on your porch swing when you’re old and wrinkled, and watching your grandkids play.

Love is not letting them go to bed sad.

Love is making their favourite food when they’re mad at you, even though you suck at cooking.

Love is wanting to kill them, but not doing so because you would miss them.

Love is telling them the truth, even if it’s going to hurt.

Love is getting up off the dinner table and suddenly twirling her around, and watching the happiness flash across her face.

Love is when you can think out loud in front of them.

Love is finding someone who would just.. Stay.

Love is home.


-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore

Who am I?

I’m the little boy, standing at the edge of a cliff

Screaming at the top of his lungs in ecstasy.

I’m the old man, sitting near the window

Waiting for someone to wave at him.

I’m the puppy that wags its tail, and licks your hand

Following you home.

I’m the florist, delivering flowers

Spreading smiles on everyone’s faces.

I’m the girl, sitting there all by herself

With a book in her hand, and a smile on her face.

I’m the sun that sets, bathing everyone

In it’s orange glow, as they look up in awe.

I’m the moon, that comes peeking out at night

And disappears at the light of dawn.

I’m the stars that shine, only in the darkness

In the velvety night sky.

I’m the book you love, the one

You read over and over again.

I’m the creases in the corners of your eyes,

I’m the wrinkles on your skin.

I’m the dust that settles in your shelves,

The dimples on your cheek.

I’m the rain on a sunny day, and

The rainbow that comes after it.

I’m the wide grin on a child’s face, and

I’m the feeling of falling in love.

I’m the bird, that soars high in the sky

As high as I can go.

I’m the sunshine, and the dark sky.

I’m life, and death, and everything in between.


-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore

Love at first sight.

You pick me off the corner

Where I lay

Lonely and forgotten.

You take me home

And close the door

And breathe a deep sigh of relief.

We’re finally alone

You and I.

You look at me

With love in your eyes

And caress me oh-so-lovingly.

You breathe in

My intoxicating scent.

It is disgustingly clear

That you’ve fallen.

Fallen for me

At first sight.

Because with me

You can be whoever

You want to be.

A queen,

A mother,

Or just a girl

Who found love

In a hopeless place.

You let my words

Make love to you.

You’re a junkie

And I’m your drug.

Because I make you

Forget who you are.

I fill your brain

With words

Until they all merge

To form a beautiful picture.

A picture that is my story.

I take you

To places forgotten

Where dreams become reality

And anything is possible.

You spend life

Folded between my pages.

Like I’m the very air

You want to breathe.

You’re a junkie

And I’m your drug.

Because after you read me

You

Will

Never

Be

The

Same

Again.


-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore

The walls around me.

I built walls so high,

No one could climb it.

Waiting for someone,

Who cared enough to try.

A few tried,

But gave up after a while.

Guess they were too tired,

To climb so high.

And then you came along,

With a smile and a song.

Singing about how,

You wanted to break my walls down.

I watched you take a hammer to my walls,

From behind a closed window.

Waiting for you to give up,

Like so many others before.

I watched you work for days,

And weeks, and months.

Never giving up,

Never tiring.

Finally, I opened a window,

And you climbed inside.

And together we broke the walls,

That I had built so high.

You sang a song,

And I finally sung along.


-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore