A letter to you.

Hi. I’ve been wanting to say a couple of things to you for a long time, but whenever I had the chance to say them out loud, I somehow couldn’t form the words. So I decided to do what I do best, write them instead.

This is not a letter about how much I love you, or how much you mean to me. Because you know all of that already. And, I know that you love me too. And I also know how much. I’m the first-and sometimes, only- person you tell stuff to. I’m the person you call bursting with news because you couldn’t wait another minute to tell me. I’m the person that saves you from yourself, the one that is always there for you. I’m the one that keeps all of your broken pieces glued together.

And you’re all those things for me, too. You’re there for me. You’re there for all the important things. And, I wish that were enough. But, it’s not. I wantΒ need you to be there for the unimportant things, too. The little things that do not matter, I need you for those, too.

I hate the fact that you take me for granted. Hate the fact that you think I won’t go anywhere. And, I hate myself more because it’s true. I hate that your problems always overshadow mine. For once in your life, I want you to stop talking about your life, and really pay attention to what’s happening in mine. Even if it’s not interesting, even if you’re bored out of your mind, I want you to just.. Listen. And, I hate that I keep hoping for this to happen, even though I more than likely know that it won’t. I want you to be the kind of friend that I am to you.

I know you’re probably never going to read this. I guess it’s one of the main reasons I had the courage to write this. And, truth be told, I don’t want you to read this. Because I’m scared of what might happen if you do. About what comes after that. Because, no matter what, I don’t think I want there to be an end.

Still all the love in the world, R

42 thoughts on “A letter to you.

  1. C’est la vie, indeed. There’s nothing wrong in wanting this, and I appreciate you for having the courage to say this out loud. Because needs like this are something we keep to ourselves most of the times.

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  2. Let her read πŸ™‚ She will be glad to know that you care so much and return back some portion of the same feeling πŸ™‚ Shit happens in life but without compromise and understanding no one gets matured and I know you’re awesome πŸ˜‰ Keep feeling and writing ❀

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  3. I can very much relate. I always find myself in friendships that feel uneven. Sometimes something drastic happens in their life that changes things. But most often you have to sadly walk away.

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  4. I’m sorry. We’ve all had friends like this. It can be so frustrating. I think you should share your heart with her. Hopefully, she would be receptive to what you have to say. In any event. I hope things get better.

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