It’s been 1 year, 2 months, and 21 days. And I can still feel your absence everywhere. In the tiny spaces left behind by the window in the living room that won’t close completely, in the cracks in my palm, down to the very gaps between my front teeth.
Some days, the pain comes wafting in with the aroma of Minnie auntie’s famous fish fry. And it is all I can do not to break down and cry.
There are days when I forget that you’re gone. I barge into your room, excited to tell you about the hilarious commercial I just saw, and feel your absence hitting me square in the chest. It wraps its icy fingers around my soul, and I have to physically stop the scream lingering in my throat from escaping my mouth. I wonder how emptiness can be so heavy.
They say you can only feel pain. But I see it, maa. Every day, in the blue of my eyes, when I look into the mirror.
-The Girl Lost In The Bookstore
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Too good! Intense and moving. Semma ma!
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Thanks, da. π
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Powerful and amazing.
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Thank you. π
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This is sensationally poignant and has so much depth. Your “something new” is amazing, especially here:
“in the cracks in my palm, down to the very gaps between my front teeth.
Some days, the pain comes wafting in with the aroma of Minnie auntieβs famous fish fry. And it is all I can do not to break down and cry.”
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Thank you so much, Tre. Those are some of my favourite lines, too. And the last one. So glad you liked it. π
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Every word made me move and feel every emotion through them.. Somehow, I loved this line the most ” I wonder how emptiness can be so heavy.”
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Thank you so much. π
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Good lines and completely Hart touchable.
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Thank you so much. π
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Your most welcome
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This is so painful. π’π’π’
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Yeah. *sad smile*
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Nice π
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Thank you. π
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Ah so beautiful my friend!
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Thanks, Sarah. π
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Of course! π π
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Forgive me for my delay, I keep meaning to follow you on Instagram. I’ll try to do that today. π
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Haha, that’s alright, Sarah. π
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It makes me feel sad for the girl that is real/fictional here..
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She is fictional. π
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oh relief then! π
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Emotional and Beautiful :’)
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Thanks, Rohit. π
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Welcome, Rupali π
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That was so touching. Literally took hold of my heart and squeezed :’)
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I’m glad it touched you. π
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This so moving and so heart felt. Great post. Take care Cally.
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Thank you so much, love. π
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This was so beautiful. And I like that this was about the yearning for your mother.
It had a beauty of its own.
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Thank you so much, Hiba. π That is precisely why I chose to make it about a mother. π
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I love your words. This brought tears to me as I miss my mother too.
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Thank you, Shannon. And I’m sorry to hear that.
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This was too good. Loved it.
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Thanks di. :*
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Pain is always so, isn’t it? Ephemeral and yet so real, so hard and so sudden……
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It is. And it isn’t always ephemeral, is it?
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It isn’t to those who are feeling it, true.
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It’s beautiful yet moving. It’s crazy isn’t it, how mere words can stab us right where it hurts the most?
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Yes, Akhila. Words are powerful. Thank you. π
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I stayed away from commenting because this felt too personal and pure to touch and knowing that the character is fictional hasn’t taken anything away from it. Only deepened my respect for your skill.
I bow to the final line.
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Thank you so much, this means so much to me. :’)
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Thank god it’s fictional, however you made it too real.. I felt every line of this post… Thank you so much for sharing π
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Thank you so much, my dear friend. π
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You are welcome π
The emptiness is actually very disastrous !! It takes time not to break but to accept reality.. ..
I miss Maa since last two years !! Thank you for sharing, it means a lot tho me:)
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I’m sorry to hear that.
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Pls don’t be sorry.. I had no such intention .. Everyone has story.. with a mixture of good and bad emotions.. But what really matters is the timing!
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I agree.
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Am glad..
Hopefully you are doing well !
Prayers and wishes are there always..
π
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I’m good. Hope you are good, too. π
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Am also okay,
Sheer a long long time, I am having a contain with you.. Almost seven months on some blog post . I guess!!
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Sorry, I didn’t understand?
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I am saying that after a long time I am having a conversation with you on a blog post ..
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Oh! Yes, I haven’t been that active, exams and all. Oye, it can’t have been seven months because I created my blog only seven months ago. π
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Ha ha .. Then it might be little less than seven months because I think we had a conversation during my initial blog posts…
Anyways , exams,?
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Haan, exams are going on now. π
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All the best for your exams, will surely pray for your success in this exam..
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Thank you. π
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You are welcome π
Just tc.. Do well that what you expect and certainly not on comparison with how others will do..
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Only two more exams left now. Haan, I sometimes feel bad thinking ki others would have done better.
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What do you study? If I may ask?
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I major in math. π Almost done with my second year.
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Omg!! Maths..
You are truly a genius..
I used to be scared of maths while of my life until UPSC has made it qualifying!!
It’s great to have a friend from maths .. π
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Haha, I love math. π
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Really!!
I mean how ?
It’s too tooo tough..
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For each his own. π I find it really easy. π
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Kudos:)
A big salute:)
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Just tc.. All the very best:)
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Which university you are in ? If I may ask.,…
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MCC, Chennai.
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Great, Madras Christian College !
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Yes. π
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Very nice place..
Wish you all success and health..
Tc π
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Thanks again. π
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So intense. I really like this!
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Thank you so much, Claudia. π
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The pain, sorrow…it is all imaginary, right?
How did your mom respond to this piece of writing?
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Yes, yes, completely imaginary. I didn’t show it to her, she already scolds me for always writing sad stuff. π
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Last three lines! π Girl, you are awesome!
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Heeheehee, thank you. π
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